It is
said a known Devil is always better than the unknown .What they don’t tell is
how heavy the chains of unknown feel like, your senses tend to blur, even
dreams offer no comfort but tend to reprimand ,it feels similar to a person quenching with
thirst looking for quantum of solace.
People
tend to scorn at you for paying attention to ridiculous things, mostly blaming
you for being over ambitious, yet all you feel is tiredness, aghast at how one
is willing to live and make peace with mediocrity. On most days it seems you
are walking among dead, unaware souls who appear so blissful that one questions
their own sanity.
Being a
strong believer of virtue and will within humans, you just want to find your
place in this world.
It is not
luxury or fame that you desire, but a believe that you are capable of something,
that you won’t pass from this world just as you came .You wish to feel redeemed,
worthy of your existence .You wish to love something from the bottom of your
heart and give a shape to it with your hands, like a mother would groom her child.
It is the
hardest things to desire for; it has no price tag, and no one can provide it to
you.
So one tends
to alienate oneself, keep digging for it, earning a few disappointments and
valuable lessons on the journey, failures gripping at your neck like snakes,
and desperately hoping that someday destiny reveals itself for better.
And all I
have to say is that if you are so, you are not alone, just keep hanging in there.
I am sure you will be just fine.