The rush of memories took my breath away. Maybe I wanted to
conquer my demons or maybe I just wanted to relieve everything, the grief which
was once my doing was now my addiction.
The chair reminded me of everything that I had lost, the
ugly face of humanity that I had to witness,
the numbness that took over my senses and the silent oath I took to never care again.
the numbness that took over my senses and the silent oath I took to never care again.
And yet being here felt right, like everything withered and
infected here was a proof of my existence.
The war had taken away everything along with it, my family,
home and my innocence. Wise beyond my years with no one to share it with,
everything had started to seem so unreal.
I had lived with survivor’s guilt for so long that at one
point I considered taking my own life, but my mother’s words would whisper kindly, that she believed that our ancestors lived through us and so
I lived on for them, one day at a time.
The broken windows, walls covered in fading blood stains,
floor covered in dust and insects, this had been my home once.
But this wasn't all that was left of me. There was another
part of me who had lived on with her proud scars , ,someone who now wanted to live freely, without the chains soaked
with sorrow weighing her down.
It was her time now.
Goodbye my sixteen year self, rest in peace, I will always
cherish you.
Stepping out of the demolished building, I saw a young girl finally giving me her forgiveness as she
disappeared in the autumn wind.